Becoming

Most people don't like to think about the idea of "becoming."

The thought that everything we do, every decision we make plays a part in determining who we are, at the very core, sucks.

It's a lot easier to believe that we're just floating through life, and our actions have no repercussions; that we're not affected by the choices we make.

But we are beings, always growing, always learning, always becoming something.

I realize that everything I do, every choice I make, affects who I am becoming.

I've said before that my policy is "no regrets." And this still holds true. I've been through a lot in the short 22 years that I've been alive, and I wouldn't change one thing. Am I proud of some of the things I've done? No. But I know that going through those things has shaped me into who I am today. Life can't always be good, and sometimes the most important lessons are learned from the bad. I know a lot about who I want to be from the mistakes I've made. And I've made A LOT of them.

I love because I have hated.

I respect because I have taken advantage.

I'm kind because I have ridiculed.

I forgive because I need forgiveness.

I live because I have not.

I give because I have been selfish.

I'm thankful because I have squandered.

I'm not perfect, I'm not trying to be. I'm just trying to be the best me that I can be. I can only be me. And I pray that I will continue to become a better me.